In the midst...

In the midst of the sadness, I find comfort in my family.

My husband, who comes home each evening tired & emotionally exhausted, gives me care and comfort - allowing me to simply "be".  His purposeful lack of expectations takes the pressure off.  His helpfulness not only allows me to rest, it gives me glimpses into his relationship with each of our children.  It is beautiful.

My children are non-judgmental & loving.  Isn't that great about children?  They don't care that I haven't washed my hair in three days, nor that I stayed in bed until 10:30am.  As long as I hug them, love them, read with them, sing with them....they are content.  They seem to understand things other adults can't.  It's an amazing love.

My home.  I really do love my home.  These walls have surrounded us for 2 1/2 years, with many more to come.  It houses my loved ones and I enjoy making this space my own.  It gives me joy to make this house a home, to organize it's spaces, to bring beauty in as well as functionality.  As I gather the excess clutter in certain spaces, I am also able to gather my thoughts, focusing on what is true, right & good.

All of this leads me back to my God.  He is always there.  Not one day has gone by that I have not felt His presence, even when I wasn't purposefully searching Him out.  He stood by me nonetheless, loving me, holding me and understanding me.  It's a good feeling.

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

 ¹ There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a ^(A)time for every ^[a]event under heaven— ² A time to give birth and a ^(B)time to die; 
A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted. 
³ A ^(C)time to kill and a time to heal; 
A time to tear down and a time to build up. 
⁴ A time to ^(D)weep and a time to ^(E)laugh;
A time to mourn and a time to ^(F)dance. 
⁵ A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones; 
A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing. 
⁶ A time to search and a time to give up as lost; 
A time to keep and a time to throw away. 
⁷ A time to tear apart and a time to sew together; 
A time to ^(G)be silent and a time to speak. 
⁸ A time to love and a time to ^(H)hate; 
A time for war and a time for peace.

I have wept & I have laughed.
This may be a time for mourning....but I can't wait to dance~