Will we move or will we stay?
Will we move this month or next month?
Will we move into the small duplex or the small house?
Will we need to pay for extra storage or will we find some on our own?
Will we save $150 a month or $225 a month on rent?
Will we rent for 6 months, 1 year or more?
**If you know the answers to any of these questions, could you *please* clue me in!!
We are right in that frustrating waiting period of a day or two. In a day or two, many of these questions will be answered. I would really like for them to all be answered today - patience is not my thing - but I know it will most likely not work out that way. I will have to wait.
Sometimes it honestly feels like I am on permant "waiting" status. Yet I do know the Lord is growing me through all this. I know He is. I am learning that I really do trust the Lord, I really do trust my dh to take care of us. I am used to just taking care of things myself. Yet I feel a bit helpless in this situation - nothing is working out as I would have planned. Nothing. Yet, amazingly, I feel at peace.
I look around my current home, see the half packed boxes *everywhere* ~ and I feel peace.
I look at my almost empty freezer, watching our supply of freezer meals slip away ~ yet I feel peace.
I think ahead to the many things that will need to be done in the next few weeks, the packing, the unpacking, the organizing, the traveling, the no-nap days, the lack-of-schedule weeks ~ and I honestly do feel peace.
I know we will get through this ~ and we will prosper. We will grow. We will be molded more like Him. Amazing.
So I wait...
p.s. Okay, I stress sometimes, but in the grand scheme of things, I stress *way* less than I used to ~ so I AM growing and learning and stretching. God *does* have me right in the palm of His hand!! ~MM~