...between Faithfulness & my healthy diet changes.
God really opened my eyes today - and I wasn't all too thrilled with what I saw.
In a nutshell, my Bible Study this morning was on faithfulness. Faithfulness in regards to sticking with what God places in front of us, until He tells us to let go or move on. Faithfulness in regards to fulfilling a commintment because that's what we said we'd do - and we are HIS light in this world. The world should see us as different than non-Christians.
we should be on time.
we should be reliable.
we should be dependable.
we should be trustworthy.
And basically, I struggle with my "feelings". I don't "feel" like fulfilling my commitment. I don't "feel" like keeping that meeting tonight. I don't "feel" like being uncomfortable or unhappy or stretched - so I simply walk away. It's easier that way.
But that's not God's way. That's not what He would have us do, not what He commands us to do.
And with my diet changes, lifestyle changes, well, I just give up when I "don't like it" anymore. That seems unfair or kinda hard or whatever. I just walk away, give up, compromise, or justify how I can be unfaithful. What kind of witness am I portraying??
NOW ~ we also discussed that God is not attacking us, not condemning us - He wants what is best for us. He wants us to grow in our faithfulness. Grow ~ so yes, mistakes will be made, yet growth will be taking place.
The dots were connected for me today, I saw in my mind's eye my lack of faithfulness and how it has been affecting me in this area (not to mention other areas). Our "feelings" are so worldly, so human, so faulty. I need to stop relying on them so much. Instead, I need to rely on my every-growing relationship with The Faithful One - follow and grow through His example.
This was a biggie for me. I had always blamed my lack of discipline, my lack of will-power. MY power was always lacking (duh). Yet looking at my *faithfulness* is totally different to me. God wants me to grow in faithfulness, He doesn't want me to grow in *my own* power.
prayers are greatly appreciated ~ you are in mine as welll...