Thursday, July 14, 2011

I'm tired.

Maybe it comes with age.  Maybe it happens after I've tried a million other things.  Maybe other people have figured this out long ago and I'm a bit behind.

Whatever it is, I know this:  I'm tired.

I'm tired of trying to be good at everything.

I see it on facebook, I see it on blogs, I see it at church.  I see another mom who is really GREAT at something and think, "Man, I wish I could do *that*!".  So I add it onto my already dangerously high pile of things I want to be GREAT at.  Inevitably, this leads to guilt.  'Cause I can't be GREAT at everything.  I just can't.  I don't have the time (and I doubt I have the skill).  And while I'm trying to be GREAT at something, everything else is falling apart.

Tali modeling during a fashion show she & Selah put on for us!

So instead of wanting to be great at EVERYthing, I'm gonna (once again) focus on what stage of life I'm in right now.  What is my job when I wake up each day?  What is going to help me best accomplish this goal?  I'm a wife.  I'm a momma who home educates.  I'm a manager of my home.  What can I do that will help me in these roles?

My Dad & my baby!

Biblical basis ~ reading & prayer: by myself, w/ hubby, w/ children, w/ missional community
Health, wellness, diet, nutrition ~ taking care of my husband, littles & myself
Home Management ~ organization, chores & training, maintaining a routine w/ flexibility, hospitality
Education ~ natural part of our day, regular book work + life as learning + loads of reading.
Creativity ~ crochet business, home decor & blessing others.

Elijah at a local festival ~ havin' fun!
This is my life right now.  And I love it!  I wanna wake up, fix my kiddos good food, read to them & watch them read.  I wanna work in the garden with my dad and show my kids God's amazing creation.  I wanna clean out the drawers & closets, get rid of all the excess and figure out how to best run my home day to day.  I really want to MAKE the time to sit down and crochet every. single. day.  To *enjoy* my days, instead of letting frustration & perfectionism ruin them.

~Summer living~

So (once again) I am choosing to change.
Thank you Lord, for putting up with me.  For loving me.

Isaac & I experimenting with the camera outside by the fire!

1 comment:

Tina said...

I think as Moms we are way harder on ourselves than anyone else is. Now that I homeschool (and Lori knows how completely against anything I ever thought I'd be doing this is) I can take the time to experience, well, experiences. It's been a good year. We all have nowhere to go but up, and thereby, closer God. And if we can encourage each other along the way, it's a much more satisfying journey. Thanks for taking this train with me, and for always being so open.
Tina @ Life is Good