Well, my usual day to day activities are just not cutting it anymore. I am used to getting up fairly late (*so* not a morning person), just as my dh is heading out the door. I am used to being able to take care of children, home, meals, cleaning, etc. all during the day - then relaxing at night with dh. This is no longer a viable option.
I have been watching my home slowly get worse and worse in regards to tidiness and cleanliness. Now, it's nothing major - I have always been a bit of a neat freak - but these changes are not happening because I've carefully thought about it. It is happening because I feel as though I am losing control. Losing control of the order to my home. The happy rhythm I have become accustomed to.
Sooooo...changes need to be made. I simply can not sleep in as long as I have been. Yet I know myself, I KNOW I'm not about to become this chipper morning person. So I'm not about to set some unrealistic goal that I'll only fail at. I'm just talking about getting MYSELF up and about before the children. I'm not going for hours and hours of time - just enough to feel ready for my day by the time the babies head out their own doors.
I'm also going to teach the children WHEN they are allowed to come out of their rooms. Digital clocks in their room, teaching them that they MUST stay in their own rooms, playing quietly, until 7am (or 7:30 - whatever dh and I decide is appropriate). That way I will be able to maintain a basic morning routine without the worry of accidentally waking someone up at 6:30 and feeling behind.
Dh and I talked very briefly about my feelings today on the phone and agreed less time in the evenings will be allowed for simply relaxing (i.e. lazin' about) watching t.v. More time will be given for me to get some basics done while he is available to spend time with the babies. This will give me more of a 'jump' on my mornings as well.
I will also be coming up with a basic "plan of attack" for each day. Right now, I am flying by the seat of my pants - just doing what needs to be done, attacking one chore at a time, always feeling behind and not in control whatsoever. That is NOT how I like to feel. I have come up with enough "schedules" to know what is realistic, that each day will ebb and flow, and that some days will not look like my schedule at all! But to simply *have* a schedule will give me (and my children) guidance - which is invaluable.
Of course, I still need to re-think chores. My two year old is AMAZING and really wants to help. There are simple things she *can* do - so I need to make sure she is included in chore time. I need to begin scheduling Elijah into reliable nap times (he is almost 4 months old and has already begun scheduling himself for the most part) so I will have definite time slots available for educating. My eldest son, at almost 6 years old, rarely sleeps anymore during quiet times, so I hope to turn this time into more education time for him as well. He will use this time for quiet, self-led activites such as reading, flash cards, writing practice, worksheets, etc. Anything he can do quietly, by himself, in one location.
Geesh...look at all that!?!! I know it seems a bit overwhelming, but I feel overwhelmed as it is right now. I have cut out quite a bit of t.v. and computer time recently. After baby #4 came along, I allowed *way* too much of that and my son especially got VERY used to it. Now that they no longer have that t.v./computer time - *I* no longer have as much time for my housekeeping. Which is resulting in quite the messy home. I can't STAND that. I don't WANT that. There WILL be changes here!!
So anyways, there it is. I'd better get started....I need to regain a bit more control of my life. My children need more structure and stability. My husband needs a warm, comfortable, clean and INVITING home to come home to.
please pray....I'm gonna need it.