Wednesday, July 11, 2007
My kids have this toy. I got it from another mom, whose kids had outgrown it. Everyone has tried one of these, right?! You sit down, pull with all your might and spin yourself around and around and around....
This is my life.
No seriously, that's what I feel like lately. I'm pulling and pulling and pulling....yet when I look around, I haven't gotten ANYWHERE! I'm still sitting in the same spot ~ and to top it off, now I'm sweating!
I know, I know, haven't we been here before? Recently? Michigan Momma, haven't you told us before about your need for structure, for a plan, for something besides spinning??
Yes, and yes, and yes!!
I keep thinking, 'well, as soon as we get past such-and-such' or 'as soon as we start school' or 'as soon as we move (again)' or whatever......what I'm beginning to realize (finally) is that THIS is my life! THIS is my family's life. I keep waiting for *normal* to happen - but I think this *IS* normal.
[please ignore the frantic screaming....I'm still adjusting to this fact]
So today - NOW - I begin in prayer. Then ACTION. What good are words (typed or spoken) without action? I can't just wander around day to day, waiting for my "normal" life to begin. This is it.
And lest anyone be confused - my life is good. Very good! I honestly think I was confused. Confused about what needed to happen for life to be NORMAL. I mean, come on, no one (well, hardly anyone, right Cassandra?) has this many little ones - all at once. Heck, *this* is normal. I'm going to start lovin' it!! instead of trying to look beyond it....
p.s. if you don't understand this post, that's okay. I guess it's mostly for me, anyway. Someone recently told me I blog for my own sake, to reflect, introspection into my own life. So if you don't *quite* get it...that's okay. Just smile and nod, "okay, Lori, whatever". ~MM~