This week I just haven't been quite myself.
Getting back from a week a camp....well...you would have to know this camp. This camp is wonderful. It started WAY BACK in the day - more and more people attend this camp each year. You are literally all stacked up together, lot against lot, camper against tent against RV against cabin. A lot of people. Great people. But people.
I must be more of a home-body than I thought.
I just didn't want to leave my home this week. I didn't want to deal with other people. I just wanted to hole up for a while.
Then, this past Tuesday night, I had a bit of blood in the toilet when I went to the bathroom late at night.
Let me tell you, the fear of a possible miscarriage makes me want to hole myself up even more!
Now, to ease some fears, it was a very small amount. It was only that one time. I have not had any more blood or spotting since that time. No cramps, no pain. But hey, ANY blood when you are still in the 1st trimester is a scary thing.
I did a little searching around online (like *that* helps) ~ and it seems ANY blood in the first trimester is considered a "threatened abortion" aka: possible miscarriage. great. Like *that* helps to ease any concerns and fears I may have.
I did call my OB (I haven't even had an appointment yet - hey, I'm only 9 weeks along) and talked with a nurse. She reprimanded me for not coming in yet, then told me not to be too concerned. I made an appointment for Monday and I'm really hoping they'll help me out, ease some of my fears, by trying to find a heartbeat. It's still fairly early though, for the doppler, so I'm hoping they'll wheel the ultrasound machine in "just to make sure". If I'm about to have a miscarriage, well, I do know the Lord is in control. But I sure would like to kind of prepare myself. I would like to know what's going on if/when I begin bleeding again.
And lastly, about the homebody thing.....as I stepped outside to get the mail today (literally the first time outside in a while), I breathed in deeply. Ahhhh.... God's creation *is* good. A nice breeze, some wispy clouds, not too hot.....it was good. Just getting the mail, and it was good.
But we are out of juice, cheese, non-stick spray, milk, cereal, etc.etc.etc.....we are running seriously low on butter, oats....well, you get the idea. I need to get it together and go shopping, at least. And we have Bible study tomorrow night.
That is *seriously* JUST what I need~